40 Years Ago Tonight

I was 16 years old, it seems impossible to fathom. After school, around 4:30, the phone, 451-2035, at my house at 4585 North Peachtree Road rang. On the other end was Chris (Austin) Carr. He was two years older than me, a regular at our Saturday hoops games at Chesnut school. I had never hung out with him, gone anywhere and done anything. After that April night, we had no further outings. But that night he wanted to know if I wanted to go down to Atlanta Stadium for the Braves opener vs the Dodgers. Knowing it was a specialized skill of my cohorts and I, he asked if I thought we could hustle up tickets. It now made sense why I got the call. But an hour or so later I was in Carr’s car heading downtown.

Oh yes, there was something beside the home opener happening that night. Henry “Hammering Hank” Aaron was one tater away from breaking one of the greatest sports records ever established, Babe Ruth’s 714!!!

I was able to procure tickets while still in the parking lot. $8 apiece is my best recollection. The seats were lower level behind the Braves dugout. Aaron walked the first time. In the 4th, veteran Dodger hurler Al Downing delivered a fast ball, Aaron delivered a shit for the ages.

Today, I do not have a single commemorative item of that night. Just my memories and the knowledge that I was actually one of the 50,000 who witnessed the event. I am hit one if the quarter million who now claim they were there. I saw history, Me and Chris Carr.

Monday April 7, Somber Thoughts

Really low today. Nothing makes sense, no change in sight, no plan in mind.

I had my Facebook page shut down last night. My posts cause people unease. Like a cry from the wilderness, the communications are useless wastes of time. I am angry however. Mindful that people did not like my honest expressions of emotion, I dramatically reduced the number of these expressions. It my last 100 posts were examined, less than 10% were commentaries of my less than optimum circumstances. However, the reaction of many was exasperation. I had earned the label as a constant doomsayers. I could have posted photos of butterflies and write poems about puppies constantly and not overcome the negative stigma. By necessity, another link to my connectivity to others is removed. I have never been so alone.

I was trying to read some things of interest and came across copies of Civil War soldiers to their wives. My belief that I was born in the wrong era is reinforced by the greetings of the times. My favorite…
” My Dearest Companion ”
What a succinct, lovely emotion. Oh how I wish that I was worthy of a Dearest Companion. Why am I exempted? How different life would be.

Monday April 7, Somber Thoughts

Really low today. Nothing makes sense, no change in sight, no plan in mind.

I had my Facebook page shut down last night. My posts cause people unease. Like a cry from the wilderness, the communications are useless wastes of time. I am angry however. Mindful that people did not like my honest expressions of emotion, I dramatically reduced the number of these expressions. It my last 100 posts were examined, less than 10% were commentaries of my less than optimum circumstances. However, the reaction of many was exasperation. I had earned the label as a constant doomsayers. I could have posted photos of butterflies and write poems about puppies constantly and not overcome the negative stigma. By necessity, another link to my connectivity to others is removed. I have never been so alone.

I was trying to read some things of interest and came across copies of Civil War soldiers to their wives. My belief that I was born in the wrong era is reinforced by the greetings of the times. My favorite…
” My Dearest Companion ”
What a succinct, lovely emotion. Oh how I wish that I was worthy of a Dearest Companion. Why am I exempted? How different life would be.

Horse Racing

Road to The Derby

The Plot Thickens
This Saturday…. Keeneland, Lexington, KY
The Blue Grass Stakes
Vinceremos is right on the a Derby bubble. The Todd Pletcher star needs a strong showing to clinch his spot. Coastline, trained by Mark Casse, also needs a good showing. Any of the field that finishes in the top two will have enough qualifying points. The race is run on Kenneland ‘s synthetic surface which has lessened the magnitude of this historically major Derby prep.

Oaklawn Park, Hot Springs, AR
The Arkansas a Derby
For major Derby threat Tapiture, running Saturday in the Arkansas Derby, his spot is sewn up for the Run for the Roses. For many others in this race, their moment is at hand. Strong Mandate, Conquest Titan, Ride on Curlin, Commissioner and Bayern are poised for what amounts to a 1-1/8 mile audition. Connections of horses on the bubble will be hopeful that other bubble occupants will falter. A win by Tapiture, already safely in, would be appreciated by those sweating it out.
Top 5 Derby qualifiers as of 4/6
1. California Chrome 2. Vicars In Trouble 3. Wicked Strong 4. Samraat 5. Constitution
BRC Power Rankings
1. Tapiture 2. California Chrome 3. Samraat 4. General a Rod 5. Vinceremos

2014 Kentucky Derby
Saturday May 3

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Alive ?

Cannot move forward, not an option to reverse,
Is desolation simply bad luck or some dreaded curse?
Empty days are spent struggling to merely survive,
But what’s the point of existing when you no longer feel alive?